Battling Depression Healing Reflections of an Ex-Jehovah's Witness Soul Food With the Bread of Life


As an excommunicated Jehovah’s Witness, I thought that I was completely over that feeling along with being shunned.  Over the last month, I have run into Jehovah’s Witnesses who are supporting the decision by the Leadership to shun me as a ” spiritual leper” which means actively ignoring me. Some say that when a Jehovah’s Witness is excommunicated or “disfellowshipped”, that it feels like a death in the family. The Leadership of JW has convinced their followers that shunning is a loving practice, designed to “wake the person up “to their senses and come back to the organization.          ( Watchtower, April 15, 2015) .

I went grocery shopping the other day and one particular brother  saw me and looked as if he had seen a ghost. He hung his head low and quickly shuffled passed me and my family. I felt ashamed and hurt that day and I have prayed to God for more answers. I have decided that I no longer want to live my life in the shadows but rather would like to live in the fullness of day. I no longer want the anxiety that comes along with dealing with Jehovah’s Witnesses in any way. But my God has placed a strong desire in my heart to help those who want to be helped to leave this organization and come to Christ.  I am asking God lately to show me what that looks like because I certainly cannot see a way this can be accomplished.

For many years,  while I have been away from the organization  I have grappled deep depression, feelings of loneliness and unwantedness.   Making new friends has been a challenge because I never had to make a friend considering that in the JW religion everyone is considered your friend just because they are also a Jehovah’s Witness. It has been very hard for me in this season while grieving so many losses ( finances, community, family, business contacts etc.) My own mother recently went back to the Jehovah’s Witness and lately, she looks torn as to how to deal with me. She believes that the organization speaks for God and that not speaking to me or even saying a greeting would be “disloyal to Jehovah”.   I am grateful to the Father for loving me like a daughter and taking me up as His own. God promised me that even if my father and my mother have forsaken me, that he himself will take me in. (Psalm 27:10) Though it has been hard for over 14 years without my family there to guide me along in life, God is showing me who my real family is. ( Matthew 12:48,49) God has truly been a friend, confidante,  and my everything.   He broke the chains of indoctrination and gave me the freedom in Christ Jesus. By His Spirit,   I am finally learning about who I am in Christ and so far it has been an amazing journey.

Prayer:  Heavenly Father thank you for a new life. I want to express my gratitude for delivering me from the Jehovah’s Witnesses. Please Holy Spirit come to give me a fresh filling of you and unveil the purpose that you have for me.  I pray that you give sight to the blind, bind up broken hearts and wounds. I am here God, please work through me to help the JWs that I come in contact with to choose love over legalism. Thank you, Jesus, for opening my eyes to who you really are. You are my Savior and every knee shall bow to your name.  There is no other name under heaven by which we are to be saved.  In the name of Jesus, I pray, Amen.



  1. This complete shunning is quite unbiblical. The goal of discipline(and I agree sometimes it is necessary) is never the complete exile of an offender, but their restoration. Even if a church is forced to withdraw fellowship, we should not ignore that person. The Bible clearly teaches that, if that happens, we are to treat the person like a sinner and a publican…meaning we are to share the Gospel with them as we would any unsaved person.

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